Now, I have a family, that I always thought I not have.
It is bitter. For almost relationship. In another word, sucks. Mommy, daddy, family and friend.
Of course, it takes courage to write this emotional entry (I will make it short).
It just, a long time ago there was a girl hated her home. It is too loud, and what she saw just the bad cloud. She remembered all the bad, more than the good things happened in her home. Couldnt say much but sort of night terrors she had, make her like that. Would you get mad over someone who so cold for now?
What happened between Mommy Daddy and the rest of family should be respected as experience. So again cant tell much in words. It is all bout words before, when some other members (aunties) get themselves over the limit when saying what shouldnt. Someone is young, struggle with night terrors, feel minor and less control of anger. It is just on the dot, to make her such a bad perspective (with some emotional provocation) bout what happens to her.
Friends? Should I really reveal? What I wrote is on behalf on me, not for all them. You may read it as story, because sometimes I didnt really understand what is reality. It just, unjust.
Again, all the consequences happened for reason. But can you friends please stop make me look like bad ones? Stop talking like I did everything wrong. You did some too, but I respected it too and put it as experienced more than silly mistakes. I will never blame you guys for what is becoming of me.
Funny when the one who I struggled helping her on wheelchair is the one who keep questioning why I was so meroyan hahaha fuck off girl. Shut it down, bcuz sometimes I really wanna parangkan you. Lucky, you didnt worth for jailing me. What I had is enough, right Lord?
It is all about me, now. I want to heal. You should too.